After 3 years I returned to this game and was able to play for only 3 month than I quit again.
If I can give you some advice, don't play on NC American servers.
You all lives inside a MATRIX and there is a good live outside of it.
You are destroying your social and financial life, you are mentally ill and addicted.
There are several servers with Gracia, High Five where bot really doesn't work and zero pay to win, true events, active ingame GMs, pure gold time fun.
I know might be to late for most of you, too much money involved, but it's just an advice. Just try to take a break and give a try.
Your friend,
NotFriend.